so close, yet so far away

he's the person who makes me laugh just by saying my name, rubs my shoulders with a strange curiousity, touches my feet with fascination, belays my climbs and pushes me harder, barely kisses me goodnight, squeezes into my sleeping bag with me, makes my heart cringe when i think about leaving to a dreamland, promises me farms and gardens, lets me drool on his sleeve, trusts me with his roommates, smiles as i lie next to him, tucks my toes in, and makes my stomach flop. it almost seems to real to surreal. it almost seems to quick but to slow. i want longevity but relish in the newness.